September 7, 2010

the inside of a broken heart

I had a pretty rough weekend. I broke up with my boyfriend. Possibly the love of my life. The worst part, we're both still very much in love with each other. The problem? The distance. Three hours. Santa Cruz, CA, I hate you. You stole my love, and you broke my heart.

Now, I know... no one wants to read about your bad day. Why would you?

Well, I am not here to talk about any of that. I am here to say, that love is REAL. And that sometimes, it's just not enough. You see, relationships are living THINGS. I swear. They change every single day. Chris and I love each other madly. But, in the end, it just wasn't enough. I will love him always. Every single day, I will think about him. So this post is not in sadness, but in remembrance of a love. A love I didn't believe in. Until it took me into it's arms and proved me wrong.

If you have someone in your life that matters, tell them. Every day. Love with all of your heart. Never stop talking to that person, about everything. Let them in. Share your soul. It's worth it.


  1. I'm so so so sorry. Sometimes love isn't enough, as powerful as it is. I hope you find a way to mend your heart in the healthiest way possible. You may decide at this moment for now, but remember love is unexpected and you never know what your future will be.
    My heart goes out to you, lady.

  2. Ugh, I'm sorry doll. I've been there. Love isn't always enough to overcome distance, and it sucks big time.

    But, if it wasn't meant to be, that just means there is someone even better out there waiting for you to find them. I know you will. xoxo.

  3. Oh no please don't do that to yourself. Listen... 5 years ago I met my husband. We were young, I lived in France and he was here in US. When I came back to the US one year after we have met, I was more than an hour away from him and yes it sucked. But today, we are together and married because I knew he was the one and he knew I was the one and we did not let it go. Be strong and you will be able to work it out if you really want to, trust me. One or both of you maybe need to make sacrifices to work that out!