October 22, 2010

dirty and left out

Life is all about choices. I need to make a few of my own. God has really been pulling on my heart to be a better person. To let go of some things. Some hurts, some disappointments. So here's where my heart is...

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I am 27 right now. In less than three years, I will be 30. And I am excited. I feel that each choice I make today, has a huge stamping on my tomorrow. In the next three years, I expect big changes. I want to make them like a real adult. Like the woman God has chosen me to be. I have been angry, I have been sad, I have been motivated, and I have been beat down. But we all have, haven't we. Whenever I start to feel too down or a little overwhelmed, I like to get into my car. And at each stop light, I look over at the person next to me. And think about what they may be going through at that same moment. It helps to ground me. It reminds me that I am not the only person in the World. Others all around me are going through the same trials, the same daily testing. It's honestly one of my favorite things to do.

So here comes the next step. I am going to make my dreams come true. On my own. Just like I always have. I've spent the last few weeks whining and complaining about being tired, and I forgot about who I really was. Everything I have already been through to get to where I am at.

At 27 I will be a business owner. The family business is transferring over to my name. It's a little daunting, but I am happy to take on the responsibility. At 27, I will run my own little online business. Crafting for others is really starting to bring me an amazing amount of joy. At 27, I will start working on my cookbook project. I can't wait to share the food I love with the people I love. Everyone.

I have been inspired by some pretty awesome women lately, and I thank you for your thoughts and encouraging words. For becoming my friends. And for making me believe in making your dreams come true.

I hope we all follow our hearts, and I hope you share your journey with me.

Let's start by smiling. Every day. As soon as we wake up. Because we're just THAT lucky♥

love love love,
shawni marie


  1. This is such a lovely post. I'm 27 too and also feel like I should be doing something of value with my life. Best of luck!

  2. How exciting, you will do great. What is the family business? Best of luck :)

  3. so inspiring, girl! what a huge step but such an exciting one. can't wait to see where it takes you.

    have a lovely weekend, friend. so glad to know you. :)

  4. Everything you said is soo true! We often need to go through the not so great stuff to finally get to what is meant to be for us!

    Good luck on your recent ventures. <3

  5. Good for you. Keep up the hard work and eventually it will all pay off.

  6. I'm 31 and have been going through that too. But, I'm making the changes now that I wished I had known I wanted to do at 20. :)

  7. How exciting for you! Good luck with it all :)

  8. What a beautiful post love!
    How exciting!! You have accomplished so much before evern reaching the big 3-0! :) I know that you will make a excellent business owner darling!
    I am so blessed to call you my friend!
    Hope you have an amazing weekend and T.G.I.F.

  9. SO sweet! I have a big SMILE!


  10. I'm so proud of you already. <3

  11. stumbled upon your blog more recently, but i've been enjoying reading your posts.

    sounds like an exciting new chapter of your life. :) really excited to see you carry out your new projects.

  12. Amazing post. "Start with a smile every day" really hit me -- I think I'll write it on a sticky note by my bed. Waking up grumpy is a horrid way to begin a brand new day.

    PS - Saw you work at Tuli in your last post? Omg, I've been DIEING to get my bf to take me there. Like for at least a year. Ugh! I've heard wonderful things though. Congrats on the award :]

  13. i'm s proud of you for having it together already! i turn 27 next month and i couldnt be more confused about everything lol! you're doing great! miss your face!

  14. you have a beautiful heart! I'm seriously going to think about that now when I get in my car today. What a great reminder!

  15. I absolutely love this post. I am so proud of you and what you are going to be accomplishing in the very near future! I think it's an awesome idea to look at the person in the car next to you and wonder what they're thinking... so awesome. And that cookbook project sounds SO amazing and fun!