March 9, 2012

change come quickly

it happens overnight

all of a sudden, you wake up, and you realize...
things have changed
sometimes it's a really good feeling, and you feel like you're on top of the world
and those are the days i cherish
but today, i feel a little different

i long for something i left behind, and i can't quite put my finger on it

i have always been a very independent lady
i grew up alone, or so i like to say
i had wonderful parents, but i was always lonely
i longed for a dear friend or a kindred spirit
a brother, or a sister

when i got a little bit older, i learned new ways to entertain myself
ways to keep me busy
i liked my little life
my magical world i created

i feel sometimes as though i have lost my magic
the greatest joy i ever feel, is when i am sharing myself with someone else
being creative
making magic
or writing it all down

once again, i am looking back and realizing that i have lost focus
so often i push aside what I want for what someone else wants
and when i take a step back, i realize i am all alone in my feelings
i am the one working
i am the one sitting out on the ledge

so seldom is someone sitting by my side...

please don't get me wrong, i don't always feel like this
i have a very blessed and full life
God has given me so much and i don't know what i would do without his mercy, and his grace

but i am the kind of woman who believes in being true to her feelings

and today, i just kind of feel alone.


  1. can i just send you a hug?
    i feel you, actually. been there couple times :)
    but i'm sure you can pass it
    it'll make you grow better :)

  2. I think we all feel that way sometimes.
    Sometimes more often.
    I know what it´s like, hope that makes you feel better, since we then are two..?

  3. There are times when you feel like that. I get that also very often, its frustrating. But I just think how wonderful life actually is. Having a life and not suffering is just amazing. Hope you do feel better.

    Love Storm

  4. hope this helps- you are never along, if you have GOD beside you. HE will never leave you. talk to HIM when you start getting lonely & see what happens!HE is amazing. may GOD walk with you!

  5. You changed your blog up, baby!! I love it.