change come quickly

it happens overnight

all of a sudden, you wake up, and you realize...

things have changed

sometimes it's a really good feeling, and you feel like you're on top of the world

and those are the days i cherish

but today, i feel a little different

i long for something i left behind, and i can't quite put my finger on it

i have always been a very independent lady

i grew up alone, or so i like to say

i had wonderful parents, but i was always lonely

i longed for a dear friend or a kindred spirit

a brother, or a sister

when i got a little bit older, i learned new ways to entertain myself

ways to keep me busy

i liked my little life

my magical world i created

i feel sometimes as though i have lost my magic

the greatest joy i ever feel, is when i am sharing myself with someone else

being creative

making magic

or writing it all down

once again, i am looking back and realizing that i have lost focus

so often i push aside what I want for what someone else wants

and when i take a step back, i realize i am all alone in my feelings

i am the one working

i am the one sitting out on the ledge

so seldom is someone sitting by my side...

please don't get me wrong, i don't always feel like this

i have a very blessed and full life

God has given me so much and i don't know what i would do without his mercy, and his grace

but i am the kind of woman who believes in being true to her feelings

and today, i just kind of feel alone.